What in the love..

So, I love loving in any expression or form. I also enjoy meeting new people. All in the hopes of meeting my souls mate. But then I realised that for that to happen I must connect with someone at a soul level, spiritually. Not through multiple dates of trying to figure someone out. I'll admit I've lost count of the guys I believed was the one but really was just another guy after my booty and with no sense of delicacy nor love. What am I doing wasting my time with these guys that I know is not going anywhere worthwhile.  Ive experienced different types of relationships and i've discovered that the only ones worth having around are those whom are genuinely heart based. Whether platonic or intimate. I've been calling in this soul mate and praying for his presence, to experience the divine creator through this person in a romantic way till death do us apart and recreate a new story in the next lifetime. When truly i am my own soul mate. the more authentic i am to myself the the more people of that same genre will i attract into my life. My heart is calling this more and more each day. In the meantime I do my best to become that greatest Me I can possibly be, to learn, to heal, to grow, to expand, to share, to love unconditionally, to forgive, to evolve, and to follow my heart. Ive realised my pattern of assuming a certain person to be the one And then I go ahead and tell him in the hopes that they will feel it too, but nope, I just scared him away, I'm way too intensly straight forward. Why am I always the one making the first move!? Yeah...i entered a period where I litterally asked myself if "he's the one" for every guy I met.....creepy.... So finally I began stopping myself in my tracks... Let them come to me. I want to feel desired. I want to feel like a precious flower, I want to be treated like a queen! So I stopped
Making moves...I know what I want and need in my life...so be patient.  First step establish a heart connection....... Dear Lord if you only knew how many people are unable to love unconditionally, nor how to honour the goddess.... Jesus!